m so confused

I'm so confused coz...I like someone...but I dunno if he likes me or not... well, I kinda formed a conclusion already that maybe he doesn't have any special feelings for me at all...I kind of accepted that.... but one day, as I was talking to my classmate, he suddenly passed by... and with a grin/big smile on his face, he said "Hi, Lorraine! You're my girl!"...I was kilig/felt excited. that moment, whether or not he was just acting his usual goofiness, I didn't really care coz I kind of thought things like.."atleast he noticed me..".. But well, as I said, m confused because I have these mixed feelings....i feel like I like him, and then i'd feel hurt (coz I'm also constantly thinking of what he thinks about me...i keep on thinking things like "maybe he's just making a fool out of me...like i'm just another form of his amusements.....basig gi binuangan ra ku"), and these two always weigh up and down, up and down....so unbalanced.... the more mixed the feelings become, the more confused I get.... Sometimes, he's a source of inspiration and sometimes.... he's a source of my resentment.... i just wish that i could read minds, so i could read his and be less confused than before. Sometimes, I'd wonder where he is at the very moment and want to be invisible so i cud kiss him or even just hug him...without him knowing what hit him.. and yet, i sometimes want to avoid him....... my gosh.....I feel so confused already.....sometimes (i guess) I wish i didn't have feelings.... siiighhh...